The Edge of reason

The Edge of reason... It's where I spend most of my time actually. We've all been there but it seems like I've spent more time here than the average passer by. Maybe it's indecision, fear, excitement or that recurrent  hesitation that tells me that if I open that door to success I have to leave the comfort of my struggles behind. I will trade them in for expectations, ridicule, and for the inevitable tap of someone else's foot waiting for me to deliver what is expected of me and some more. However, beyond those expectations, silent self satisfaction will greet me at its mirrored door and pride is all  I will see....but  until then I'm on the edge of reason. Plotting. Planning.Hoping and Praying.