I've had many early mornings like this. I know I've spoken about my attachment to the past so many times that you would believe that I would have ran out of things to reminisce over by now . This morning I'm missing home like crazy. I'm up doing yet another work related assignment that calls on me to look for places of interest and things to do in my homeland of Dominica and as I go through the pictures a certain sadness comes over me. It's not like I can't go home when I want to or that the landscape has changed, in fact I will have to argue that it has gotten even prettier. As we dig deeper into the gifts that mother nature has afforded us we find even more amazing Eco-sites. But I see my country somewhat like an exceptionally beautiful woman being swindled by her pimps. So many men and women compliment her on her beauty, promise her diamonds in the form of economic stability, they tell her that she has so much untapped potential and then they don't deliver. Maybe she's forgotten that she too can save herself. What does this have to do with the past? Well before I could comprehend the politics of the situation I had an untainted view of my country. I want to be able to see her from that innocent vantage point again. It's like looking at a pretty woman and thinking gosh she must be so independent, strong, she must have it all.... but later on you find out that behind that veil of beauty lies an insecure harlot .... Dominica my love what are we doing to you ?
When I was a child
When I was a child I was taught to think like a child.
I’m not sure exactly what that means because I still think about the things I thought about back then. Is it that I forever remained intellectually childish while my body grew or is there nothing wrong with childish thoughts? (at least in regards to chasing your dreams)
Fast forward to today. I’m trying to get some projects that I want done off the ground. I’m pushing ideas, making notes, drafting plans and trying to gather a team and it’s funny that the biggest obstacles in all my projects are the adult minds that I have to convince. The same minds that encouraged thinking outside the box, the minds that criticize the young for NOT thinking outside the box, those who blame us for letting foreigners capitalize on our paradise. Yet I sense fear and strong opposition when I present my plans or suggestions. I’ve been under the false pretense that the adult mind was a rational thinking vehicle that found a way to make radical ideas work. In fact the ideas that I have aren’t even that radical. I think the adult brain is a vehicle filled with fear and hesitation, risk becomes life threatening because one is aware of consequences, but when consequences stifle positive change then what’s the point?
-An apparently still childish mind (Nadja)
Chasing dreams & shooting the breeze
I’ve been really busy chasing dreams and watching modern family episodes in between. I think I may have too many dreams though. This morning I went to bed at 6 a.m. and began to freak out. What if I do all this and never hit my target, would I look back and regret that I didn’t spend more time with my friends? mehhh…hindsight is 20/20 vision. I’m pretty sure no matter what I do I’m going to look back and think that I could have done it differently.
On a totally unrelated note something cool happened to me the other day though… well not cool but here goes… my blackberry died…I proceeded to freak out... I brought it to a repairman…. I got it back five days later and guess what, those five days were some of my most peaceful days. It was like I went back in time. My life slowed down. To tell you the truth I was a bit sad when I got it back but hey I can’t try to chase dreams and be out of the loop right?
Before my phone died completely some of the keys stopped working and it was a pretty interesting the alternate words I had to use because the keys wouldn’t work for the words that I wanted to use- in short it was an amusing vocabulary builder .
I’m working on a couple projects that I can’t wait to share with you guys but until they are at a stage that I can show something well yeah I will just have to wait to blab
Anyway this was just a quick blog post so that my page doesn’t get any cobwebs J .
And before I leave here’s what I currently listen to and watch on my breaks.
1. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rLdYJG6lc5Q
Modern family episodes that are a MUST SEE!:
- Someone to watch over lily
- Boys night
- The incident
- Travels with scout
Cooking and Not Writing
I haven’t said a lot lately. I’m not sure why. Actually I think too many things have been happening and to tell you the truth I’ve been a bit overwhelmed. Now when I’m overwhelmed instead of tackling each task one by one. I abandon all the important things and do things that totally have no priority at the moment. I also think that I may have an intense fear of successes. I have some amazing opportunities and I keep saying that I'll tackle them tomorrow. A friend of mine thinks it may be delayed gratification or something... I think I'm just full of shit. So I need to get to the root of my fear asap because I don't want to look back and regret not taking advantage. So here’s what I’ve been busy doing trying to ignore that huge mountain of assignments that keep piling up -_- !.... COOKING :D
Coconut Curried chicken with breadfruit salad
Beef soup using the bbq grill
Jello shots. Check out my three tier ites, green and gold jello shot .. :D
Mango strawberry sorbet
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